Not drinking doesn't suck, took me a long to make that realization. The way I came to realize it was like sober-zen. Not drinking literally isn't anything, it's the absence of a thing, it can't suck or be good or mediocre, it is not a thing. My AV made it a bad thing, tried to convince me that drinking (an actual thing that you do) is a good thing. But the truth is , for me, that for me drinking sucks, always leads to other things that suck.