Early recovery was a serious roller coaster of emotions/ feelings. Some very high peaks and very deep valleys.
As T.I.M.E. went on and I worked on fixing me and clearing away the wreckage I left behind, the peaks and valleys got closer together.
Today still have em. They aren't near what they used to be and the great thing is the valleys aren't as deep as they used to be and I'm very rarely in a valley.
And I'm good with that today. I wouldn't want the roller coaster to be a straight line ride. I think of two things of that ride:
That's what I searched for drinking/ drugging- no feelings.
A straight line on a heart monitor isn't a good thing.