Originally Posted by
RJY9 
Hi Guys,
At the end of this month I will be 7 months sober. I am having a nice easy life in terms of getting on with the every day things that make a difference in not just my own life but in my family's life to and I m trying my very best to apply the steps and smash the illusion of drinking and have stopped romanticizing over the parts of my selective memories that are telling me to relapse.
However I have noticed recently that the demon does raise its ugly head from time to time and this is usually around 6pm every evening when I am feeling extremely stressed from 9 hours of work. I have to really just sit down quietly and try and relax and unwind naturally with a Cold Can of coke and a cigarette hahahah. Stress and anxiety and fear are the worst things when it come to wanting a cold Beer. But I am getting there and really learning how to play it all forward to the rubbish life that it will all lead to if I pick up that first drink.
My entire family are all so proud of me and I've everything to gain and also everything to loose.
It is getting easier.
Peace. x
For me it wasn’t the first, last, or any drink in between, it was the CRUX of the problem that was the causes and conditions of why I became addicted which began in childhood.
Alcoholics Anonymous Page 25, “There is a Solution."
Almost none of us liked the self-searching, the leveling of our pride, the confession of shortcomings which the process requires for its successful consummation. But we saw that it really worked in others, and we had come to believe in the hopelessness and futility of life as we had been living it. When, therefore, we were approached by those in whom the problem had been solved, there was nothing left for us but to pick up the simple kit of spiritual tools laid at our feet.”
Alcoholics Anonymous Page 35, "More About Alcoholism"
So we shall describe some of the mental states that precede a relapse into drinking, for obviously this is the crux of the problem.”
quoted with the permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.