Hi nmd, yes we were in September 14 together. Think I managed around 45 days that time. Hope you manage to get back into sobriety this month....I know how you feel though every time you try it seems to be that bit harder and feel that bit more hopeless. Maybe try a bit of AA if you're not already, I've never really been a fan but going every day currently and it does help to keep your priorities straight in your head being around others with the same struggles etc....it's amazing how many times you hear your own story being told back to you by someone else.