I have a lot of trouble with regret and shame. Sure, I can be loud and obnoxious when drinking but that I can laugh off. It's the times I drank myself into blackouts that bother me. The memories are hazy but filled in by witnesses unfortunately. I've woken up in jail cells, the ER, and back alleyways but it's the times I fought with family and friends that I really hurt over.
The only thing we can do is accept we cannot drink and give a full, honest effort to sobriety. I don't know why it took me so long to finally get it. I cannot drink period.
Day 3 is not easy. Your brain is still adjusting so anxiety will be amplified. I wouldn't sleep a wink until at least day 4. Take it hour by hour if you have to