Della...Regrets are tough to deal with and I certainly drank to forget mistakes I'd made. Now I've learned that I'm in a different chapter of my life and I am trying to be the best I can be on a daily basis. I can't change the past..I can only move forward and I try to repair some of the damage that was done, at least where I can. So don't deny your feelings, but try to forgive yourself and move forward. Life is short.