Thanks Ruby,
It kinda blew up last night. This morning at work I get an email saying she's booked a flight back to Tokyo leaving tomorrow.
Its probably for the best.
But I'm a strange combination of sadness and frustration. This has been a long thing, a lot of travels. I read all of War & Peace on one of them. The final goodbye will be difficult, as they always are.
And the the temptation to have some time off sobriety is ever tempting in these moments....