If I could have figured out how to be an alcoholic with out the consequences I likely would still be drinking. I tried very very hard to figure out how I could drink like I did and have nothing negative happen. I worked for 20 years to find the solution.
Guess what? I never found it and things just kept getting worse and worse. One day things got really bad and I admitted defeat. I looked back on my drinking career and every time I got in the ring with King Alcohol I got the snot beat out of me.
Today I chose not get beat up anymore.