I see myself in this post.
No booze:
- discomfort
- anxiety
- depression
The truth is though, that booze has created, or at least, amplified those feelings. That's its way of keeping its grip on us.
The more I drink, the tighter the grip becomes.
I am a pretty smart guy. I know what's happening. I know that in all my attempts to be "happy" through self medication, it's putting me in worse situations like Divorce, unemployment, and bankruptcy.
As times got tougher, my dependency to level out my feelings through alcohol intensified. I'm smart enough to know I'm on a path, and not a very good one.
Yeah...having a drink feels good. As long as I'm drinking. Then what? Do my problems resolve themselves? No. They get worse. It's a monster. An evil one at that, and it's cunning with a specific strategy to keep me coming back.