Originally Posted by
drinkingdinos 
I think I just want to be able to drink without the negative consequences.
Unfortunately that is not possible. Acceptance of that fact was the key to moving forward for me.
I would agree that if you are drunk now a lot of this wont' make much sense anyway - maybe you can find the strength to put the bottle down today and take stock of your situation. Make a list ( write it down ) of all the good things alcohol provides for you, and then all of the bad things. Read through your old posts if you need a reminder.
Also remember that comparing your drinking to others is kind of irrelevant. It doesn't really matter how much you drink or how often you do it, you need to decide if it's a problem for you. We cannot tell you if you are an alcoholic. But I can tell you that being on a 5 day binge is NOT normal drinking behavior by anyone's standards.