Dear Gardener, I don't proclaim his addiction on the rooftops, but I DO seek support and I get it from my dear friends. They are all very supportive and would do anything to help JJ as well as our entire family. One of my friends Dad's went to an expensive rehab a few years ago and he is one of JJ's biggest fans. He encourages me to never give up hope. Many of our friends are "partiers" who drink and have fun but drug use is not part of our circle. I used to envy my friends children who are now all grown up and doing well. I still wish my son could enjoy the fun things we do with our other two kids. I think my acceptance that I didn't cause it, I cannot control it and I cannot cure it really helped me see that his drug usage was not due to my actions. There is always a guilty feeling ready to take me over if I let it. What Mother would want her son to be homeless? Then I realize that whenever I bend to the guilt, I begin my enabling all over again!