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Old 04-19-2015, 09:18 AM
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JUK
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London, UK
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"Trapped in quicksand"

I remember this phrase from a book by Caroline Knapp - that drinking was like being trapped in quicksand - you can't move you can't do anything, even the simplest things. This is how it feels right now - managed 55 days sober but have been drinking the last seven days

The problem I find is that I seem able to find that initial energy to get sober when things in my life are feeling positive. If things are going well I can find the courage to take that leap, but right now things feel terrible - massive anxieties about work, massive anxiety about family and I realise that I'm just not a strong person. I feel so afraid of life, of responsibility, of other people - I loathe myself for being so weak...
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