Good morning Eliasson,
I just saw your post from yesterday and wanted to say that I too share your pain on 3 outta the 4 reasons you listed, but not the worst one, your son's cancer.
We all drink or use to escape the hard realities of life. But I want to tell you that I believe it's much easier to cope w/these realities as a sober ( or clean, in my case ) person.
I quit opiates & benzos last yr in Aug. & Suboxine in Feb. I have all the same issues to deal w/but feel so much better dealing w/them now that I am clean.
I chose SR as my support group ( as I am not comfortable w/face to face support groups yet. ) And SR has been a life saver for me.
Glad to have you w/us.