Originally Posted by
anattaboy 
I was gonna do it if that makes sense.
said some nasty things to everyone.
You remind me of me.
Oh yes, how I remember, once I had made the decision that a drink might be an ok thing to do, I was drinking again in short time.
Your meanness towards others due to your relapse should be a big warning sign for you.
For the true alcoholic, once drinking again, these sad events are repeated over and over again unless one sobers up and stays sober.
Good luck with your return to sobriety.
Mountainman