I've thought about SMART. AA wouldn't be for me cuz of the religion thing.
And yeah, you kind of hit the nail on the head with winding up in solitary situations. The thing is, when my drinking was at its worst, I'd usually have used something like tonight to get the ball rolling and then when home, I'd pound vodka. Obviously very happy to be in bed now with the Rangers on TV and following the mets on the mlb app.
the weird thing about today is that I'd been getting better at being 100% sober while watching sports with friends and was really committed to sobriety. I can't really identify why my mindset today was so different and then how I was able to change from getting drunk to just getting a club soda. Had my coworker gotten a beer, I'm pretty sure I would have as well. Sort of just took that one instant for me to play the tape forward and stop myself. Pretty clear that I need a more concrete plan though