It may sound odd to congratulate you just now, but that's the first thing that came to my mind. I experienced much the same as you and that raw point in my life became the starting point of a journey that has afforded more change than I would have ever imagined just six months ago. It won't be easy. Living like you have been isn't either though is it? You're seem to be ready....it's gonna work out. Wishing you the best.