One day at time is right. Really really struggling right now. I got an email from a client at about 4 saying that he wanted to get together to watch the Rangers tonight (copied in a lot of my coworkers). I easily could have just not responded and not gone, but I gave in and decided to drink. So from about 4 to 6 I had mentally gotten ready to drink.
When I got to the bar, I was ready to order a beer and then my coworker got a water. So I just said "I'll have a club soda" and that was that. I stuck out the first period but just was feeling like I was gonna cave, so I left and came home.
Honestly not sure what to make of this. Obviously very happy I didn't drink, but I was about to. And over the weekend I was super close to drinking. It seems almost inevitable now. I have sober plans this weekend that I'm going to stick to, but this party next weekend is just screaming out at me. It's really bothering me....gonna just take it one day at a time.