All came crashing down
Hi all
I know this is a familiar tale but I am so disgusted with myself right now and finding it hard going...
It was all going so well, I got up to 55 days without a drink, then drank once but got sober again for another week. But on Sunday I literally exploded - started drinking, got angry with my wife for no reason, was angry with my sons and have spent the last few days just shut away, drinking, watching Netflix and sleeping.
It was all going so well that the crash feels even more painful. As well as not drinking I had started jogging every evening, eating well, sleeping well and my creative work (a source of huge tension for me) was going really well
I just feel so completely ashamed of what I said and did that it just makes me want to drink more to hide from the shame.
Just needed to get that out I guess
J