Hi Angel, no one hates you. We've all been in the situation where we're scared and don't know what to do or how to handle things..
BUT, please heed what Carlotta says and take it to heart. I work in a courtroom and believe me when I say that coming to court smelling like alcohol is a bad idea. And even though I have a very poor sense of smell, I can always smell alcohol on people. Imagine what if someone has a keen sense of smell? Can you stay with someone the night before that will support you staying sober?
We're with you. Please take care of yourself.