Yeah, I would binge drink and get all kinds of different ways. Its like the emotion I feel at that moment would take over my actions. Its a scary feeling. I'm on day 6 at the moment and just been keeping busy and tryin to get my life back together from the train wreck that I put it in. I can only blame myself. But I'm not gonna kick myself too hard either.
At least you know what the alcohol is doing when you binge. Awareness is helpful. Some people (and I use to be one) are just in denial. This forum has been helpful thus far for me personally. Hope it helps you.