I always thought:
a) Maybe it will sort itself out or become manageable with either age, a relationship or a proper 9-5 job which prevents getting drunk the night before
or
b) I have time to make my plans to stop drinking and work out the best approach for me, and situation to do it from, because I still have some distance before crisis point.
If I think as a rational human being, my latest experience now tells me:
a) Even if it does become manageable for a while due to one or more of these reasons, that does not mean that it cannot also crash
AND
b) I might be a lot closer to crisis point that I think.
I now make the full admission that I will never be able to drink normally, and that crisis is inevitable if I do not stop (and might not be long down the line). Now I need to focus myself on finding the strength to actually do it (stop I mean).