Welcome to Sober Recovery.
Originally Posted by
damaged4life 
So, here I am because I don't have anyone that I can honestly talk to, but I know that I just don't want to drink because it has always led to me not feeling good about myself.
Well, feel good about coming here and being ready to tackle the drinking problem. It is not unusual that we decide to quit then decide we don't have a problem and its okay to drink. In fact, it's common, so much so that it is a characteristic of alcoholism.
Commit to sobriety, truly commit, and accept that you will never drink it and it won't be as easy to talk yourself back into drinking.