Troy, getting hung up on whether alcohol addiction is a disease, a life long affliction or whatever you want to see it as won't resolve the issue if it's causing problems in your life.
There are a lot of people who define themselves as alcoholics who are highly intelligent, doctors, judges, writers, painters, you name it, we are out there. I often thought the biggest impediment to me first getting sober and then staying sober was over thinking things. Being too smart for my own good. I discovered that over analysis led to paralysis.
I've never been called stupid. I've been called bossy but never mean. I'm a good person who happens to have no control over my drinking once I start.
If you want to dig out of the hole, you can. If you don't? That's your call.