Hi Rose,
Of course you feel drawn to the wine, it is an addictive chemical...nothing else. Not a friend at all.
Life without alcohol is not only possible, but is it better!
I am only 5 months in, and very grateful to be sober.
I worried about "having fun" or "being happy" without drinking, and am finding great moments of joy and peace already...
Can't wait to see what the future brings.
Fight the wine. It is worth it!