It's great that you've come back, Placebo.
Even if you can't get to meetings where you live, there are a lot of resources. There's the chat room with chat meetings on SR, and there are AA speaker tapes and various kinds of resources available online that can help you build a sobriety plan.
It helped me a lot to structure my day around my recovery -- I still check in here morning, noon, and night -- literally. And other activities too -- ask/look around on SR to find out what other people do and try their suggestions, lots of them, and you'll find you've built yourself a program.
I know you can do this!
