Welcome, Frank!
I can understand where you're coming from. Lots of long-timers hang out here in various forums, including this one.
Newcomer's Daily Support Threads - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
There you'll see the One Year and Overs, and lots of us monthly "classmates" who hang out with those that embarked on their journeys at the same time.
Don't give up.
Tomorrow, I mark my 20th month of sobriety and life has been sooooo much better! There really is a lot of hope and inspiration here. You'll also find that a lot of folks make note of special milestones in the Newcomers Forum and elsewhere. Lots of joy to spread around from those inspirational posts!
Interesting choice of screen name. Were you a "Lost" fan by chance? I was, and remain, a huge Lostie.