Definitely had moments where I've hated myself for drinking and in turn, this led to a feeling of disliking myself overall which obviously doesn't help the road to recovery.
I have diagnosed mental health problems and I self medicated to take the edge of, despite being on medication. I liked how it felt and was entirely oblivious to the damage it was doing to my already compromised mental state. Drinking is a very big thing in my family and with my friends. There are two alcoholics in my immediate family who are no longer on the wagon.
So in that initial stage of "do I have a problem?" It was "no, don't be stupid!" And the comparisons to those around me helped my denial. I didn't feel any feeling of hatred until I had trouble stopping drinking the first time. Then I hated what I'd done to myself and ended up drinking out of that anger at myself.