Yes, I realize that. For a while now I have known that there would have to come a time when I would attempt abstinence based recovery. I thought the fact that I could still fight through my 'hangovers' and did not resort to eye-openers/give in to the temptation to kill my 'hangovers' with more drinks, was one POSITIVE sign for me, one sign that I still had some time before crisis point, one thing that made my problem less severe than my alcoholic friends who all drink every single day, but actually from what I am reading it seems that their brand of alcoholism is safer.