Originally Posted by
SoberFreckles 
I accepted quite early on in the process that I am an alcoholic and that I should never drink again
^^^ If you truly and honestly have accepted this then you should steer the course.
Take it from me. I am six months in as well. This is the longest stretch of sobriety I have ever had. Over the last year and a half I have had stints of sobriety where I have tried and gone back to test the waters so to speak. And every time I do I realize very quickly why I quit in the first place. For me now I have finally reached a place where I truly and honestly have let it go. And it's such a relieving feeling! It took a long time, but I finally get it.
It's more than just quitting the drink. As I'm sure you've realized by now. It sounds like you need to get more involved in your sobriety. You say you've been a lurker for some time. I'm glad you finally decided to join SR and participate. It's helped me tremendously and changed my life forever.