I used to be scared and anxious when I thought I might have to go without drinking. How would I cope? Now, most of the time, I'm scared and anxious when I picture in my mind having a drink. Drinking turns me into someone I don't want to be and I know logically and emotionally it's the last thing I want now. Never thought I'd get to this point. Still a newbie though -- six weeks sober and the longest without a drink in over twenty years.