Thank you all for your replies. You have given me some great things to keep in mind when I start thinking that way.
Sugarbear, I like what you said about step 3 being a decision to work the rest of the steps. That is a lot easier to wrap my head around then what it would mean to turn my will and life over to God.
Scott, your suggestion to read my old posts from last year was really helpful. I really struggled to string a few days together and felt so bad about myself.