Wow...just...wow
Last year at this time I was drunk. My daughter probably had to entertain herself so mommy could be left alone with her beer. My energy levels are finally starting to get better and tonight, without even thinking about it, I was on the swing set with my daughter. For a long time. We played, ran with the dog, laughed at the chickens...it was effortless and something I regretfully neglected to do with her, especially the last 3 years. Tonight before bed she said "mommy, thank you for playing with me and making me laugh". My heart broke and was overwhelmed with joy all at the same time. I will not allow myself to wallow in the past. I could very easily if I wanted to, but there is no time. Life is short and if spirit gives me tomorrow, I ask for the guidance to live in the now, like today. I just wanted to share. Sobriety is extremely rewarding. Extremely.
Jennifer