Originally Posted by
Wastinglife 
Sounds like we are the same type of drunks Rose. I have made a public spectacle of myself far too many times. I am a very destructive drinker, a Jekyll and Hyde to the extreme.
It all starts with day 1. The guilt and shame is tough but that wasn't the real you. Take comfort in the fact that you are a good person who has a problem with alcohol. the solution is to stop drinking period
Oh boy... I have used the Jekyll and Hyde description of myself often, sadly. Oddly enough, I take comfort knowing there's another Mr Hyde drunk out there. So, thanks for that! The person I am when I am drunk is such a departure from my sober self it is disturbing.
You're right that the only solution is to stop drinking. I am just totally incapable of moderation. I will never be the "social drinker" type.