Hold o. You can do it
I know it may seem rough now, but the first few days always do. I have been there myself and have lived in your shoes. I can promise that it will get better and that you can do anything that you put your mind to.
Quitting drinking will be one of the hardest things you ever have to do but I promise you that it is worth all of the heartache that may seem torturous at this moment. If you need any help we have an outreach that can help in any way possible and is here 24 hours a day if you need help. Just shoot me a message and I'll do whatever I can to make sure that you find what you are looking for.
Stay strong and hang in there. It is all worth it and you can definitely do it.