Hello and welcome:
In your heart, you KNOW. You need to answer all those questions so my suggestion would be to start reading here. I had so many misconceptions about what an alcoholic is when I started my journey, so educating myself really opened up my eyes and helped me make the decisions I needed to make. One of the things that helped me the most was reading other peoples experiences here. It helped me relate, learn and be inspired. Ultimately I made the decision I need to quit drinking. I wanted to make my life what I wanted it to be. I did not want to be that person anymore.
I'm so glad that you found us.
You are not alone!!!