Well today is Day 1 of the rest of my life. My sober life. I have tried before and failed. Enough is enough. I probably drink 3 nights a week on average but as soon as the first sip passes my lips, look out. I can't stop. Every time I drink I black out and turn into a crazy person. Last night I put away 3 bottles of wine. How am I even still alive. I didn't even know that I had drank a third bottle until I was cleaning up the mess I had left on the balcony this morning. Apart from feeling like **** when I come around in the morning and feeling guilty knowing that I was probably horrible to my partner the night before, I regularly have to rush onto Facebook to check if I did anything stupid and check my call list on my phone to see who I called or tried to call and try to recall what I said. No more. I have been drinking for about 20 years, for at least 10 of that I have been drinking myself into oblivion, alone. Today marks the beginning of my new normal
