Doing some reflecting
I'm so tired of being negative. My intense anxiety has caused me to not eat in three days (the three days that I have been at HIS house.) I can't even look at food without wanting to vomit. I looked through his phone and he's gone on more than a FEW dates already and brought some women back to his place. I read a comment from one of you that stated "ACCEPT THE PERSON THAT HE IS TODAY." This is him. I can't look ahead and wish for the future or mope around and reflect upon the past to create a false reality. This is who he is. He is showing me- I need to LET HIM.
The alcohol isn't even a issue anymore- it's his personality disorder that manifests as much more than just that. His motive is to do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to benefit HIM. Forget my feelings..
I just wish these types of people never existed in my world. So much pain. So much heartbreak. So much anxiety. Why.......