I am all too familiar with what you are going through Para. I wouldn't sleep for 3 or 4 days after a binge. crippling anxiety and self-Loathing drove me nuts. I never was suicidal but I just didn't want to be alive and able to think.
Just remember that it is normal to be abnormally anxious after drinking. I would get so frustrated because I couldn't turn off my mind for even a 20 min nap. It does pass. Usually 3 days for me. Until you feel better, distract yourself. I would binge-watch TV shows all night. I actually watched 5 seasons worth of Breaking Bad during one particularly bad detox period.
Hang in there as each passing hour you are closer to being back to normal.