YLS I couldn't even fathom what not drinking forever was when I first quit. I read all the statistics a about early sobriety and decided that I could swear to be sober for 90 days. It was difficult but I did whatever I had to do to make it to 90. In my late 80's I bumped the number to 180. I'm still pretty early on but with time my confidence that I can do this gets stronger.
Can you swear to yourself 90 days?
for what it's worth, I know you can do this!