I'm scared
On day three. Went to work and turned around and went back home. I did 5 days twice last month and feeling quite chipper fell right back into the hole I have been in the last few years. Well today I drove home crying that I didn't want to die. I have never had withdrawal like this. Looking on-line my symptoms match anxiety attack to the T. It was just that nothing seemed to be a particular trigger. I have slept well for the last two nights. I don't see shakes in my fingers-well except during the attack. Not really nausous. It looks like anxiety attacks are my withdrawal. They are very unpleasant. I called the doctor and can't get in until Thursday-which would be day 6. I'm scared I am wrong and have something more serious going on here. Now it is afternoon and I feel better. I want to do this in private. But I did spend alot of time on SR the last couple of days. I had been here before, but when I failed (repeatedly) I just went and hid. Too ashamed.