Keep in touch here BP.
For me, it turned out that 'I' was the Trigger.
Every underlying process led to the same automatic behavior...drink.
If things were going good, a drink would make it even better.
If things were going bad, a drink would help me cope.
Plus, I always BELIEVED I could 'keep it under control'.
That turned out to be the telltale giveaway that I was the Trigger, and then when I took a drink, it was like playing Russian Roulette...would I be able to 'keep it under control' this time? Looking back, it was pure HELL, living like that..fully under the dominance of that Obsession / Craving / Drinking cycle.
I KNOW from my experience you can be completely FREE of it all....Sobriety has given me a New World of REAL choices for me to be able to do, not so when I HAD TO be continually planning how I could drink, no matter what was going on, and I HAD TO continually 'keep it under control'..it was pure living HELL.
RDBplus3...Happy Joyous, and FREE...and I KNOW YOU CAN BE 2