Hi Cloudy
I just wanted to say that I think you are very wise and strong (although you may not feel it).
I to have worried for my cat, when my H has been on a drunken rage. He didn't hurt her, but she was petrified by him because he was throwing stuff around the room.
I think when you see it affecting someone or something else, you finally realise how bad things are.
Hugs to you and sending you peace and serenity.
Sara