Good to read your posts again MM. Sorry your not in a better place at the moment. You say you had two years sobriety under your belt. I know why you would try picking up again (we all do right?) How did you let it get so out of hand again? I'm six months in and sometimes think I could have a few on rare occasions and leave it. Like that I could stop the cycle from happening again at any moment. I'm stronger, wiser now BS...