Hi MM, I truly hope you are able to put the pieces back together. Its very compassionate and thoughtful what you say about letting them go from a guy like you, but its not what you want, and I'm sure its not what they want. They want someone who is present in their lives. What endgame said is so true. Taper down, or get some meds and get sober, figure it out from there. Quite frankly I'm surprised you were able to binge for 8 weeks and keep your job, you must be incredibly strong mentally. You can do this, what's your other option...give up? That's never an option. Especially if you've run marathons.