Originally Posted by
MarathonMan 
The finality of this atempt scares me.
It should...your addiction wants it to. The binge you have been on has most likely skewed your perceptions of the situation too. You are going to need to take it on faith/acceptance/face value that the solution is to stop drinking. Don't think about forever, or even next week. Think about today and what you can do to stop. Go to an AA meeting, go to the ER, go to the counselor, do whatever you possibly can.