geeez i just lost my response- i hate that. it was deep too...%^&*
anyway I said well look at it this way I can be the guinea pig LOL
and i said i'm scared and sad and i don't want to have this conversation w/him tonight i want to hold on to him and him to me but i must remember it's not ok to do that and it's too soon. or i think so anyway, hope i'm not overstepping it...especially when it goes so against what i first want to do. but must remember what an alanoner said if it's meant to be it will be. i hope he will hear my words from my heart and not from a place of mistrust....thank you for the calm and comfort prayer, it does apply and i appreciate it. i feel like i'm about to walk to the gallows or something, or see someone else there...i hate this feeling. but i know i have to move one way or the other, can't stay stuck in this limbo spot....i don't like this, don't like it.
if it's meant to be it will be, if it's meant to be it will be, gotta stay strong gotta move to the light even though it looks so gloom right now