thanks, for example, I just found out I have to go out of town for work for 5 days tomorrow, normally I'd be excited because I could have my bottle of wine and get in bed and watch tv, now it's like - nothing to look forward to, no pleasure, no comfort, etc.. no RELIEF from life, maybe that's what I'm trying to say - that sense of RELIEF from life it gives, having a hard time finding any healthy replacement which makes being sober just feel like a JOB, like something you are supposed to do, like eating brocolli