day 2 - no booze
at times today i really do feel like i got this thing figured out and its not going to be a big deal.
i quite smoking 1 month ago which really was not that big a deal (so why then did it take you 25 years to quit you ask yourself). i just set myself up for the event then followed thru.
so yesterday i stumbled across the AA online forum and watched
then participated and admitted for the first time ever that i was an alcoholic
gabby said to check SR out and i am really glad that she did bc now i can simply write out my feelings
so here i am, i have planned my day so that i will not take a sip
and part of that planning is that i have to visit SR
to read someone else's story and my own first post
to remind myself why i want this
physically, i have a small headache but otherwise beautifully clear minded
i love that so many people have viewed what i wrote which somehow validates my thoughts. it lends support to the fact that i am NOT ALONE. and while i am not able to talk to anyone in person about how this will be tough i can whine whimper and bitch to my hearts content (if i choose). or like i am feeling right now i can celebrate in 48 hours of sobriety
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