Originally Posted by
drinkingdinos 
Don't really have a recovery plan. I've been to a few aa meetings but felt really out of place. I've been so sick most of the time I've been sober that I haven't been able to really do anything but lay around. I've only just started feeling better this week really.
I know it sounds bad but I'm really tempted to just say eff it and start drinking again. I can't stop thinking about it.
Do you have a free drug and alcohol service clinic like we have here in Australia? Ours is paid by the government and I'm seeing their psychologist twice a week and their doc on a regular basis. Talking with my psychologist really helps me and we are doing CBD as well. We set up a emergency plan for the wedding shoot I had last week, first exposure to beer since detox.
It really helped me to have that guidance.
In a few weeks when she's back from holidays we are going to work on a long term recovery plan and preparing me for the real world.
Having that plan will make me feel more confident around situatiobs where alcohol will be involved.
Would ir maybe be a great thing for you to do something similar?
I hope you're staying strong mate. 2 months is heaps long! Worth fighting for