Thank you all so much for your care and concerns. I'm feeling better since our loss, but very depressed about having to deal with my husband. He is taking suboxone under a doctors care. He got fired from his job, which is about the 8th job hebhas lost in 6 years....and now we don't have health insurance. He has drained his bank account...thank goodness we don't have joint accounts. He has no money and no job. Ugh! The suboxone is suppose to be tapered over a 8 to 12 week period and it's very expensive. I just can't believe the mess he has made of things. I wanted to try for another baby but obviously that is on hold for a long long time if ever we try again. We were also suppose to be moving into a bigger home as well, so of course all MY dreams are on hold. I can't help but have so much resentment towards him. I can't help but place distance between us and in don't know how to deal with my feelings.